So… I’m kind of failing NaNoWriMo?
I’ve honestly never been as far behind as I am, but oddly enough, I’m not panicking? Like, you would think, and I would think, I’d be freaking out that I’m over 10K behind schedule. But I feel like I’ve just kind of accepted it and that also should freak me out but doesn’t.
Anyways! Today I’ll be talking about how I’m a failure how NaNoWriMo is going for me so far!! Mainly involves just me crying and dying, but it’s cool.
Also, if you didn’t get a chance to get to read anything about the WIP I’m working on, check out this post right here!
STATS
Obviously, I am doing very well!!!
[flashback to last year when I thought being 3K behind was bad]
As you can see, after Day 4 is when I started falling behind (wow look at how long I lasted), which is kind of pathetic considering the fact that when I was done with Day 4, I literally thought, “2K isn’t so bad! I could do this every day! This is fun!”
I haven’t written anything today, except for what I wrote “this morning” at like 12am, but I’m hoping that once I finish this post I can crank out at least 1.5K to total 2K for the day!
I don’t really do anything to celebrate Thanksgiving, but I know that I’ll be spending time with family, so I don’t know if I’ll be able to write at any other time than at night tomorrow. And on Friday and Saturday, I have plans with friends, and on Sunday, I have to work on a school project, so I probably won’t get as much writing done as I want to!!!
I’ve also realized that on the last day of NaNo I’ll be in a different city preparing for an all-weekend dance convention/competition, so that means I can’t procrastinate until the last day!!! Meaning I basically have to finish a whole day early!!!!
DISCUSSION
I’ve literally never been this far behind in my two (2) years of doing NaNoWriMo, and it’s so unexpected?? And after Day 4, when I started getting behind, I just… accepted it. I saw myself failing and my brain just went “oh well”. Like I said, usually I would freak out, and I… didn’t.
And I heavily regret NOT pushing myself to write more, because now it is very hard to catch up. I don’t want to say whether or not it’s actually possible for me to get to 50K, but I’m going to try to, and if I don’t make it, I’m just going to accept it.
But it’s also VERY weird because today, November 21, I got super overwhelmed and stressed out looking at how far behind I am???? Like literally no other day have I been overwhelmed or actually CARED, but all of a sudden my brain freaks out. Thanks.
Love you, mental illness!!
But yeah! I think the toughest part for me right now is just… lack of inspiration? Because the lack of motivation I’m facing is because I have no idea what to write, and I don’t like writing when I don’t know where it’s going to go. Maybe you should have actually PLOTTED then, May!!!!
And I’m really surprised that I’m finding the “descriptive thought narration” parts easier to write than dialogue?? Those sections flow more naturally for me than dialogue, which usually isn’t the case and it’s really weird.
Besides the whole I-have-no-idea-what-I’m-writing thing, it’s actually… okay, I guess. The plot (or lack of) is really bad and it’s making me completely lose my motivation, but I’m still pushing through and it’s still not a total failure!!
THINGS I’VE NOTICED 
- I have done like 3 word wars this year, and I wish I did more!
- I write… at night? Aka I literally start writing at 11pm and then carry on until 12:30am??? (very unhealthy do not recommend)
- A lot of my novel is, surprise, FILLER!! Something I seem to do with everything I write!!!
- I keep pronouncing my MC’s name wrong in my head and I hate myself for it
- I’ve mentioned Thai food like five times already
- I’ve skipped ahead to write two scenes!! because I’m impatient!! and the parts I’m writing now are boring!!!
- It is genuinely so difficult to make my two love interests hate each other but also necessary because it is HATE TO LOVE
SNIPPETS!
At the beginning of NaNo, I was sharing some stuff here, but then I stopped. It was fun while it lasted…?
Anyways, I wanted to share just a FEW snippets, since they serve as a great motivator for me! Because I see writing that’s actually okay and want to write more! At least that’s what I hope happens, instead of me wanting to just rot in a hole for the rest of November!
MALI I LOVE U
NAHLA I LOVE U
LONZO I LOVE U
And that’s all I’ll share! Because everything else is unedited and sucks and I’m also getting more and more self-conscious!! (But also I love my characters so much, like I would marry them all if I could, like the dumb bi I am.)
how’s NaNo going for you, if you’re doing it? what are the easiest and hardest parts? are you ahead, behind, or right on track? ANY TIPS FOR ME ON HOW TO CATCH UP??? (and feel free to add me as a buddy!!)
p.s. would you look at that! a post that’s actually under 1k words!! aka I’m really trying to save my writing energy for my NaNo and NaNo is also going so bad for me that I literally have nothing else to say about it!!!
Forever and Everly 
For the sake of coherency, I’ve organized my thoughts into a list:
1) Happy Thankgiving!!
2) Good luck at your dance competition/convention!!
3) Don’t feel bad about NaNo, I’ve literally written nothing this month. So you can’t do worse than me!
4) Lanzo is already my favorite.
5) Good luck with the rest of your WIP!
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I meant Lonzo, sorry, typo!
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Aaahh, thank you so much! And after November has ended I’m feeling a lot better and more confident about my word count! And omg I’m so glad to hear you have a favorite character already haha!
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This sounds super cute based on your excerpts, May. The messy room thing reminds me of me and my sister 😁. And don’t worry, you might have a few sessions where you absolutely power through! It’s not the end of the month yet so you can still get there. At least you’re not panicking. Haha.
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Aaahh, Ashley, thank you so much! And honestly the lack of panic almost made me panic? But even though I didn’t make it to 50K for NaNo, I’m still proud of what I wrote, and that’s partly due to all the things people like you have said to me! 💗
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No worries! Always happy to be someone’s cheer squad when they need it. Nano is tough!
Oh gosh, the panicking about not panicking, I’ve been there. 😂 It’s so weird.
You should definitely be proud of what you achieved, fantastic job!
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You may not be on track with the NaNo goal, but you’re making progress little by little every day and for me, that’s a WIN so I’m proud of you!!! <3 Best of luck for the rest of the month and no matter what, you're writing and that's what matters :D <3
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MARIE AAAHHH I love you so much you are so kind to me!!! Though I didn’t make it to 50K, I’m proud of what and how much I’ve written and it’s partly because of all the wonderful things people like you have told me 💗
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You should be proud, that’s amazing!! <3 I'm very proud of you and I can't wait to see all that you'll write next <3
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Good luck with your writing. Im behind on my Nanowrimo words as well 😅 so I understand the guilt and stress over it. Hope your dance convention/competition goes well
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Oh,I hope you managed to catch on NaNo by the end of the month! (And if you didn’t, that’s fine as well!) And thank you so much, the dance convention was a lot of fun!
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May – are you writing? THEN YOU ARE DOING PERFECTLY! I mean – it’s more than me 😂 I’m not doing it. So what if you don’t reach 50k? You had fun with what you did write – and that is enough. I get (as much as I can) you might not be able to accept this right now but I’m gonna be here and you can contact me whenever you want motivation. Cause honestly? I’m actually ok at that. Most of the time 😉
I’m sending you love and I know you’ll get there. Rhi xxxxxxxx
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Aw, you are too nice to me, Rhi!! Thank you so much for your sweet words, it’s that kind of encouragement that really helped me be proud of what I wrote!
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there isnt such a thing as too nice! i an’t wait to read it once it’s published (which im sure it will be eventually!) xxx
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i really wanted to do nanowrimo this year but my exams will start in like 3 days and i had to prepare for them.
honestly, there’s something about stats and graphs and just raw stastical information that gets me so. pumped. up. like give me those sweet graphs to spike up my anxiety bc im self-destructive like that.
anyway, don’t want to be too sappy, but it’s ok if everything is not going according to the plan. i know it doesn’t really help with the anxiety but you’ve written so much and you can always continue after this month.
i love the snippets! you’re doing so good. 💛
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Aw, I feel you! In the end I didn’t finish NaNo because of school stuff, but it’s all good! But yesss, I LOVE the stats and graphs, I know it can be pressuring for some people but for me it’s a good kind of pressure? And oh, thank you so much Nimika, those are the exact words I needed to hear <3
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I love the snippets you shared! “it was a unique form of torture” made me laugh out loud. :) And just keep writing! I’ve done NaNo six times, and a few times when I got horribly behind I just quit, and I wish I hadn’t. Just forget about where you are in the month, how far behind you are, how many more words you need to write to catch up — and focus on your daily goal. It’s hard to keep showing up when you’re behind, but if you keep writing and end November with more words than you had, you’re doing NaNo right. Good luck!! <3
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Aahh, thank you so much Madeline!! I’m so happy you liked the snippets ☺ And oh that’s really great advice, I definitely will take it to heart in not only NaNo but other writing times <3 Yes, you're so right! NaNo is truly about getting those words down on paper <3
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I’m almost 10k behind, I feel you! But you still have time to get back on track and anyway you have written 20k words that you didn’t have at the beginning of the month and that’s already HUGE.
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Oh, I hope you could catch up in time, Andrea! And if not, I hope you know that’s completely okay ☺ And thank you so much! I really feel prouder of all that I managed to write even if I didn’t get to write 50K <3
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I did just in time! I’m happy you accomplished a lot of words too. After all the purpose of nano is to write and build a habit 💖
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Even if you aren’t super on track for 50k, I think it’s amazing that you’ve already written and accomplished so much! The snippets you shared are so cute and I chuckled at the 2000s hits part! Haha. Anywho, I find it so inspirational that you’ve already written so much and that you keep striving to reach your goal! Sending you lots of love and good vibes!! 😘❤️
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Thank you, Kelly!! I’m glad you enjoyed my snippets, and thank you so much for the kind words and encouragement <3
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ahhhh girl 50k is so arbitrary!!! it’s so impressive that you’re writing pretty consistently on top of all the other responsibilities you have on the day to day. like. you’re still blogging??? that’s a lot of words??? extremely impressive.
anyway in conclusion i’m proud of you already and you should be proud of you too
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UGH I LOVE U SO MUCH u know exactly how to make me feel better about myself 💗💗💗
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FIRST OF ALL, I LOVE YOUR SNIPPETS. Second of all, you’re doing amazing!💘The most important part is that you have fun and just enjoy writing your story. You’ve already accomplished so much and I definitely think you should be proud of yourself for what you’ve done so far. Good luck with the rest of your month!
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OLIVIA AAHH thank you so much!!! I’m so glad that I’ve become prouder of what I’ve written now, partly due to the kind words that people like you say to me <3 Thank you so so much!!
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ugh give us more snippets you mango. i just want to read more words from my fav blogger/author/reviewer
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i love u maymay but go away
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meanie
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I loved your snippets, May, especially the last one! It made me laugh :) Good luck with the rest of NaNo—I totally understand the stress that comes with being behind on a goal, but even if you don’t reach 50k, 20k is still really impressive and I’m super excited for you!
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Aaahh Annie thank you so much!! Glad I could make you laugh ☺ And yes, it’s because of kind words like the ones you’ve said to me that have made me feel much prouder of what I’ve written, so thank you!! <3
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Aw I’m really glad, you’re so welcome May <3
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I’m a little behind on blogging so I hope you had a good Thanksgiving May. :) Also when it comes to being behind on NaNo I think I have you beat, I fell into a major slump this November and massively failed, but actually like you I’m not freaking out. Like you said our health is more important (though there were a few nights where I stayed up until after midnight writing, I wouldn’t recommend that either!) and there’s always next year. :)
I love your snippets, and when it comes to my WIPs I always write scenes out of order. I class myself as a mood writer so I always write the more exciting parts before going back to filling in all the filler parts. :)
I hope since you posted this you’ve managed to get loads more written, and good luck with the last couple of days left of NaNo. :) ❤️
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Thank you so much, Beth!! Oh god, I totally relate. I slumped so hard which is so weird because usually I’m good at competition with myself like this, but I just didn’t care?? Even though I still ended up staying up after midnight as well to catch up on writing!!
Aaahh THANK YOU! I am so so happy you liked my snippets ☺ And oh, that’s an interesting method! I feel like if I wrote all the interesting scenes I would never want to go back to the “boring” scenes and then never write everything else 😂
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That’s all right, and yeah I’m the same when it comes to self competition and staying up until midnight some days writing. Guess this time it was wasn’t meant to be. :)
That’s all right, and yeah I guess that is one of the downsides. I just feel like once I’ve got all the immediate interesting scenes out the way there’s something else that’s interesting for me to write.
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OMG MAY – these are just short snippets (very short why aren’t they longer *glare*) but your writing seemed to have improved a lot. Not that it wasn’t great before but I LOVE THESE!! Also, just remember, I wrote 100 words on the third day of NaNo when I decided to ‘join’ and that’s all I’ve written since so you’re doing MUCH better than me lol.
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SAVANNAH oh my god thank you so much!!! This is so kind of you omg 😭💕 And aahh no, 100 words is good!! You have 100 words more than what you started with so it counts for something!! 😂
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