May’s Moments of the Month: January // Worst Book Slump Yet, All Over the Place Mental Health, but Lots of Self-Care!!

I think we can all collectively agree that January didn’t happen, yes?

January always flies by so fast but I… genuinely have no recollection of anything this year. I can make out vague events but it feels like such a long time ago. When did the new year start? I have no idea.

Overall, it wasn’t a horrible start to 2019, but it wasn’t a great start either. The best part about the month, though, was actually practicing self-care, and I’m super proud of myself for doing that, especially with other parts of my life not doing so well!

mmm reading

December was a god tier reading month (16 books), so of course in January I slumped and read only 4 books!!!!

Honestly, I don’t even feel that sad about it?? I don’t know if it’s my depression making me not care about it or if I genuinely do not feel stressed about reading a lot of books in a month, but I’m glad I don’t feel horrible for not reading more!

My biggest issue was that I tried to read ebooks, specifically eARCs, but for some reason ever since October I’ve been struggling a lot with ebooks. So for two weeks I tried to read my eARC of Descendant of the Crane but I couldn’t! And in those two weeks I read and finished nothing else.

Summer of Salt  Bad Romance  Black Wings Beating (Skybound #1)  Ruin and Rising (Grisha Verse, #3)

  • Summer of Salt Katrina Leno // this was just so soft and beautiful and I loved the f/f romance. best way to start out 2019!! ★★★★☆
  • Bad Romance Heather Demetrios // such a hard book to read but immensely important and written beautiful. super triggering though! ★★★★☆
  • Black Wings Beating Alex London // was kind of slow and boring at times but it did get exciting and I’m excited for the sequel ★★★☆☆ [3.5]
  • Ruin and Rising Leigh Bardugo // I’m genuinely surprised by how much I actually enjoyed this book. I can’t believe it. I don’t know how to feel about this ★★★★☆

book haul?

The Girl King (The Girl King, #1)I THOUGHT my preorder of King of Scars would arrive on time, and not, you know, a whole week after release date because then what was the POINT OF PREORDERING… so I only got 1 book instead of 2 in January!

Thank you so much to Em @ Em Likes Books on booktube for fulfilling my #bookishwish and sending me a preorder of The Girl King!!

[won’t be doing the “favorite” and “disappointment” books of the month since I read so little lmao]

mmm blogging


  • So I didn’t do as well as I hoped with interacting with all of you guys. But I feel like I was doing an okayish job in the first half of January, and then not so much in the last half? (Which is weird because my mental health was worse in the first half than the last half.)
  • But I’m planning on taking a 2ish week break from posting anything in February! I have a blog tour review going up this Wednesday, and possibly a post on Friday?? And I also have one planned for Valentine’s Day, but after this week, that Valentine’s post will be the only one until the 21st!
  • I’m taking this break because I really want to focus on getting back into my rhythm of commenting on posts and replying to my comments, which has been super hard for me because I just keep posting and posting without making time for interacting. While I know that I’ve been making progress stats-wise and I’ll lose that this month, I’m positive this is the right choice for me

top posts?

anticipated 2019 half  blogger appreciation  book survey 2018

favorite post?

I am definitely the most proud of my blogger appreciation discussion post!! I mean, how could I not be, after sending over 6 hours working on it??

others’ posts

mmm writing

  • Surprise surprise! I wrote pretty much nothing again this month.
  • I really wanted to start replotting my WIP, and you would think I would have the time to since I wasn’t reading a lot, but I just don’t have any inspiration! I’ve been trying to let ideas come to me, but it isn’t working, and I know forcing myself won’t help either, so I’m really stuck.
  • BUT! I’m really glad that I haven’t lost the motivation or want to work on this WIP—I truly want to continue planning it and writing it, and I’m super happy about that.
  • As for poetry, I wrote like three poems, and they all pretty much sucked!

mmm life

  • First thing’s first, I went back to school and just as I predicted, the progress I’d made with my mental health turned back on itself and I had horrible mental health for the first few weeks of the month!!!
  • Luckily, only a few days into the new semester, I was able to go out of town to attend a Model United Nations conference and that was so much fun. (Even though I only spoke one time.)
  • I’ve also started using an app called Habitica (thanks to my productivity god friend Elise), and it’s really helped hold myself accountable for actually doing things! I feel so motivated to actually do homework and skincare and simple things like that just so I can check it off in the app.
  • As for music, since it seems to be a theme to mention it in my life section, I listened to a lot of Hozier in January!! I needed to come up with 3 songs and concepts for a dance choreography thing I’m doing, and I ended up listening to almost all of Hozier’s songs trying to find good ones. (I LOVE HIM SO MUCH.)
  • Other than that, I can’t think of anything else to add in this section? Like I said before, January truly did not exist. Nothing happened. I don’t remember anything.

mmm old goals

(I failed everything but my self care goals and honestly? I’m happy with that)

  • read 9 books  (reading 8-9 books a month will keep me on track for reading 100 books this year instead of rushing to finish like I did in 2018)
  • read my overdue ARCs!!!  (this is like. really important lmao)
  • write some reviews!  (I’m feeling in the mood to write reviews so hopefully?)
  • start up poetry again?  (this is one of my 2019 goals and I want to get an early start!)
  • start plotting my WIP again  (my WIP has such a bad plot. aka no plot)
  • stretch  (this is one of the tasks I’ve put into Habitica!)
  • practice! self! care!  (Habitica helped me out SO much on this one: skincare, sleep, AND water!!)

mmm new goals

(many of the goals are the same because I want to start keeping up the same habits, since it’s healthy for me to do that!)

  • read 9 books (my friend gave me a bunch of webcomic recs so I know that if I end up slumping again with actual books, I’ll have those to fall back on to hit 9 books!)
  • write some reviews! (I’ve been feeling super nostalgic about writing reviews so I really want to write at least one non-ARC one!!)
  • write poetry (I don’t know how much I’ll be able to do it since I’ve been so out of touch with it but I’m hoping at least twice a week?)
  • start plotting my WIP again (I really want to do it this time!!)
  • practice piano more (I’m so unmotivated to practice Wednesday, Thurdsay, and Friday that I end up only having 3 days to practice until my lessons on Tuesday which is BAD)
  • practice! self! care! (Habitica is my savior)

mmm looking ahead

Brief blogging break! I’m really excited, actually, to post less in order to actually interact with you guys. I think it’s going to be really relaxing and fun. I’m HOPING I actually manage to do the things I want to do (comment on posts! reply to comments! blog hop!) but we’ll see.

Honestly not much. The only important things happening this month are like, Black History Month and also Valentine’s Day I guess, but I literally have no idea what other significant things will be happening?? 2019 is really off to a fantastic start!!!

shall we chat

how was your February? did you slump like me or read a lot of books? do you have productivity apps like Habitica? and have you gotten the chance to read King of Scars yet???

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50 thoughts on “May’s Moments of the Month: January // Worst Book Slump Yet, All Over the Place Mental Health, but Lots of Self-Care!!

  1. So glad you’ve been successful in practising self-care this past month, May! I honestly love reading your posts because everything you say is always so inspiring, relatable, and honest (but no pressure to keep actively blogging or anything, your mental health comes first)!!

    Anyways, I’m wishing you a very happy and healthy February! ❤

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  2. I actually really liked ruin and rising too– it definitely had lots of good parts for me!!
    Good luck with your writing!! It’s always nice when you get back into it !! 😊
    Going back to school is the worse– I’m sorry you had some bad mental health weeks, I hope your okay 💛
    Hozier is great!! I love listening to his songs!!
    Good luck with all your goals and I hope you have a wonderful February 💕
    (I’m currently in the middle of king of scars which is very exciting)

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    1. Me liking Ruin and Rising was a huge surprise for me, haha! And thank you so much, I’m doing better now but mental health always has its ups and downs ❤ And aahh thank you, I hope you have a lovely February!! (And I hope you're surviving KoS 😂😭)

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  3. Self-care is seriously so important and I’m so happy that you got to practise it more in January. I wouldn’t say that I fell into a reading slump but I didn’t finish any books last month… I just spent too much time on YouTube and catching up on movies after revising for half a month for the mid-terms. Doing more blog-hopping is also a big goal that I would like to accomplish this year. I hope you’ll have an awesome February and good luck with your February goals!

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    1. Thank you so much lovely!! I’m so glad I was able to practice more of it in January as well ☺ And aahh, YouTube and movies after midterms is honestly the best form of self-care, haha! Hope you don’t feel too bad about your book slump ❤ And yes, I definitely want to do better at blogger interaction (especially since I used to be a lot better at it 😭). I hope you have a great February!!

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  4. I just read King of Scars and I need to scream about it with someone. Also, it’s really great that you just read Ruin and Rising because this book is definitely tied to the original Grisha Trilogy.
    And I’m glad self-care is going better for you! I’m honestly struggling on that end. But I think that’s because January was SO CROWDED for me and I couldn’t figure out how to live life. Hoping I’ll be able to breathe a bit better in February.
    Good luck with this month’s goals! Will definitely miss your posts but I totally understand and hope you have a lovely break!

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    1. I’ve started just a tiny bit of King of Scars and I’m so excited to read the rest!! (And yes I’m so glad I ended up reading Ruin and Rising — I had no idea about Nikolai 😅😭)

      Thank you so much, Liz! Self-care was definitely a positive in January, and I hope you’re able to practice more of it as well. Wishing you a much less busier February and some breathing room! ❤


  5. I think it’s great you’ve been practising self-care more this month May. 🙂 That’s for sure something to be proud of because I think sometimes we put ourselves and self-care at the very bottom of our priority list when it should be at the top (it’s something I’m trying to focus on for this year too).
    I suppose you could always average out the two months in terms of your reading; saying twenty books in two months would work out better that way. 🙂 But even so it seems like you enjoyed all the books you got to this month so that’s something.
    Also I get what you mean when it comes to pre-orders. I pre-ordered The Gilded Wolves last year and it’s only just been dispatched to me. What’s the point in pre-ordering when it seems like you have to wait longer for it to arrive?!
    Great recap, and I hope you have a brilliant February. Happy reading. 🙂 ❤️

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    1. Aahh, Beth, it’s so nice to be practicing a lot more self-care!! I definitely think it needs to be more prioritized by everyone, and I hope you’re able to practice more of it in this month / year! ❤

      ahaha yeah combining the two months' reading amounts would definitely make it look like a lot! It's so strange how I read so much and then read so little in just the span of one month 😅 And yess it's so annoying — I preorder for a reason, to get them on time without having to go out and buy it! 😂

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      1. Definitely, it’s so important but I feel like it’s something no one really focuses on as much as they should. ❤️
        Law of averages or something right? That ways you can say you essentially read ten books each month which is a great goal! 😀
        Same here, and I’m still waiting for my copy of The Gilded Wolves which I am very annoyed about?! :/


  6. 1. thank u for calling me a productivity god I love you too
    2. you read Bad Romance!!! and somehow I didn’t notice?? I’m so so glad you liked it that’s honestly still one of my favs
    3. I hope all your goals go well + the blogging hiatus is some self care I love it!!
    4. YOU’RE A HOZIER FAN PLS TELL ME WHAT ALL YOUR FAVES ARE I WOULD DIE FOR THAT MAN he’s the only man I even listen to yikes rip

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    1. 1. you are the most productive productivity god I know
      2. YES I READ BAD ROMANCE BECAUSE OF YOU!!! it was so heavy but so good
      3. I LOVE YOU
      4. okay fhfhdshfds I love Take Me to Church of course but also Movement, Work Song, Nina Cried Power, Arsonist’s Lullaby, Like Real People Do, Shrike, Cherry Wine, and Moment’s Silence (Common Tongue)

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      1. SHSHHSHSHSH YOUR TOP HOZIER LIST IS LITERALLY IDENTICAL TO MINE like I’d add It Will Come Back & NFWMB and that’s it we love taste

        I’m so glad you liked Bad Romance omg I should reread and self sabotage again

        I LOVE YOU TOO


  7. I didn’t read much in January either (I was busy and I started writing more) !

    I’m reading an eARC and it’s slow progress because my attention span when it comes to ebooks is super short and also because I’m worried using an ereader like an iPad will end up hurting my eyes.

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    1. Aahh, Miri, it’s great that you were writing more in January, even if it meant reading less! And same — ebooks have been a STRUGGLE lately. And honestly I already look at screens so much that I don’t think reading ebooks would cause more damage to my eyes fhshfdfsh 😅

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  8. wait I’m so confused. EVERYONE’S BEEN SAYING THAT JANUARY LASTED FOREVER (!!) and then, there’s you liked “it didn’t even happen”…? we stan an unpopular opinion queen.

    1) I’m very glad you liked Summer Of Salt!! And I’m not just saying that because I gifted it to you!! Obviously not!! I am never biased!!
    2) WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU LIKED RUIN AND RISING???!!??!?!? may ur gonna make me cry. I hated siege and storm and I DID NOT FINISH (this is in caps lock because I’m angry that Grammarly saying “dnf” is not a thing so I need to shout) ruin and rising and ur making me want to read it bc MAY? YOU? Enjoying a book? that’s a huge selling point for me?? SO IDK NOW SHOULD I READ RUIN AND RISING BEFORE KING OF SCARS?? I GENUINELY NEED HELP
    2) omg you’re going on a break!! take care of urself!! I support you so much!! good luck on like relying to comments hahahahaha u have so many!!! I will mist ur posts and probably die while you are gone!! but it’s fine!!
    4)thank you for linking to my posts ur the best I love you.
    5) I knew about habitica before u were born but I only used it for like 2 days and gave up on it because I’m actual trash.
    6) You better send me all ur poems (they’re not trash) how dare you insult urself (me realising this is your whole brand and mine too, and then realising i’m very dumb).
    7) I hope u get out of ur slump soon.try NOT reading e-books. just an idea.

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    1. okay well I GUESS January could’ve gone by slowly and I just don’t remember a single thing because it all felt like a blur but IT DIDN’T HAPPEN

      1) lmaoooo THANK YOU FOR THE GIFT!!! it’s so soft and beautiful I love it
      2) okay like I hated Siege and Storm with a passion too, and it might have been because I was just coming out of a two-week slump when I read nothing??? but uhhh I definitely recommend reading R&R before KoS because of background stuff lmao
      3) aaahhh I love you!!!! I’m not going to reply to all the comments probably but definitely back until August’s posts maybe jfdslf
      5) I was born before you you little idiot
      7) listen I HAD to read ebooks okay!!! eARCs!!!!!! but also I’m doing a lot better now lmao


  9. I’m so glad you managed to practice some self-care in january, may, I hope you’ll be able to continue that more and more, you deserve the best.
    I can’t wait to read Summer of Salt, it sounds like such an amazing book, I’m so, so happy you enjoyed it!
    I hope you’ll be able to catch up and focus on getting back into interaction and everything else, it’s so hard when you lose track of it all, but honestly it is such a great part of blogging, too, I love chatting with everyone. I hope you’ll have fun with it again. ❤
    Thank you so, SO much for sharing my post, I'm so happy you enjoyed it!! ❤
    I hope you'll have a great February ❤

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    1. Aahh Marie, thank you so much!! I’m proud of me too honestly (and I’m cheering you on with your own self-care too!!)

      And I really hope I can get back into the rhythm of replying to comments and commenting on others’ posts too!! I miss it a lot and though I know it’ll take time and work, I’m ready to commit to again ❤

      Have an amazing February, Marie !!

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  10. Oh, congrats for self care and also yay for Habitica. I used it for a few, along with some other bloggers… but after a bit I stopped. I totally need to pick it up again.

    Also, good luck with the break and the WIP. Even if you didn’t write on that terms, is still good that you’re into it. Sometimes it can even be good to keep some distance and clear your mind 🙂

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    1. Thank you so much, Camilla!! Habitica is definitely super helpful for me (I just love ticking off tasks and getting rewarded haha) And thank you!!! Your words mean a lot to me and you’re absolutely right — taking a break from my WIP has made me fall more in love with it ☺

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  11. May, I am OBSESSED with the featured image/post graphic/thingy (what do you even call those things??). The purple flowers with the text is really stunning. Also, I really have to check out Habitica now because it sounds super helpful. I need to work on health care b/c right now my health care is finding the nearest piece of chocolate and eating it. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Good luck with everything this month. I hope you find a more positive headspace. ❤

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    1. Aaahh thank you so much, Madeline!! I get all my photos from a website called Kaboompics if you’re interested haha. (And I call them featured images!) And I’m sending all the love and luck for your health! Taking care of yourself is so important and I hope you’re able to do more of it in February ❤

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  12. I love this wrap up so much! And four books is still hella good! I am so happy you read Summer of Salt! Have you read The Wicked Deep? I truly think Summer of Salt is the love child of The Wicked Deep and Girl Made of Stars, hahaha! BUT I love you so much! Thank you for that sweet shout out! And I can’t wait to buddy read with you this month! Happy reading, love! 💖xx

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  13. Ughhhh January wasn’t the best month for me. I spent most of it with a bad cold and feeling gross, I barely did anything, and I was slumping SO BAD. I mean I read like three books in the first four days, which was great, but then the slump hit :\

    Ahhhhhh I read Summer of Salt in January too and I LOVED IT SO MUCH! It was super weird, but it was just so beautiful and unique and sweet (and of course queer hehe) and I feel completely in love! And same I actually genuinely really like Ruin and Rising? And I DID like the whole series, but nobody else seems to like Ruin and Rising and I just… really did.

    Also I’m going to be reading Black Wings Beating soon, and I’m sort of nervous that I’m not going to love it… Especially if it’s slow, which is the last thing I need while I’m slumping. But oh well, I’m going to give it a try!

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    1. Agh, I’m so sorry January wasn’t amazing for you!!! And wow, that’s what happened to me as well?? (The reading three books in a short period of time and then slumping thing, not the sick part haha)

      And yesss Summer of Salt has the Strange vibe that always comes with urban fantasy but I loved it!! And oh god yeah no one else really loves R&R, and especially with my hate for the rest of the series I expected to hate it…

      I hope you love Black Wings Beating!! I don’t think I quite clicked with the MCs or their voices, but it’s definitely a subjective dislike haha

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  14. i’m glad that you prioritized self-care in january! it’s something i need to do but can never find the time for :(( i agree with your op. of ruin and rising, bc even though i only 3-starred it, i did enjoy it more than i was expecting to! school can really make your mental health go down, i hope your mental health improves in february and that you feel better, sending all the love! i really need to try habitica asap, i was/or am?? idk?? planning to try it but i havent yet lmaooo. see you later in february, may! i’ll miss your posts, but i definitely understand! have a great (mini??) hiatus!

    best of luck with your goals in february, and happy reading!

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    1. Aahh thank you so much Taasia! I’m glad I prioritized self-care as well, and I’m sending all the good vibes and hope that you’ll be able to do that in February as well!! and yes it’s so weird how much I liked R&R?? I feel like I should be rating it like 3 or 3.5 but no :’) And I hope you’re able to try Habitica soon!! It’s really helpful to me!

      THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! I have you have the best February ❤

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  15. Ok I am super interested in looking up that app now because somehow I am just turning into someone who works super hard all day and feels like they’ve achieved nothing lolol sob. And that sucks that school sends your mental health spiralling, so I hope you can keep up the self care still!! and I totally get it with the blogging + making time to read others’ blogs + answering comments…afjdkalsd there is so much to do. And I slump with ebooks so much too??? like for genuinely no reason it just happens *falls over*

    (Also thanks ago so so much for being part of that collab post!! it was so nice to have you 💛💛and for sharing about my cover reveal afjkdslda thank you 😭💛)

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    1. Cait that is ME!!! Even if I end up accomplishing like ten tasks it still feels like nothing at the end of the day (stupid brain!!). And thank you so much, I hope you’re able to practice self-care this month as well!! And commenting on blogs + replying to comments is definitely a lot of work but I’ve missed it so I’m really glad to be taking this posting break!!

      (Of course, thank you so much again for inviting me!! And your cover is absolutely GORGEOUS and I’m sure the inside as well 💞💞)


  16. KING OF SCARS IS ACTUALLY THE BEST™ READ IT AND YOU WONT BE DISAPPOINTED!!!! Also I lowkey read it before the S&B trilogy and luckily I had no plans to read them because there were so. many. spoilers. Anyway, hopefully February is better than January and have an amazing month xxx

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  17. I’m sorry to hear January wasn’t such a great month for you (I don’t think anyone actually has fun in January tbh). I’m sure February will be better, since you’ll be taking a break! And please teach me your ways to self care 😅 My skin has been begging me to take care of it every day and I’m just lazy.. I’ve tried apps to keep me acccountable, but unfortunately they don’t really work for me ):

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    1. Aahh, thank you Marta!! And yeah you would think January’s nice since it’s the new year but nope 😭 And aahh honestly downloading the app Habitica really helped me?? On top of that I just felt Really Determined to do it and made a habit of doing certain things (skin care, drinking water, etc.) each day, even if it was small ❤

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  18. LOLOL I literally ran to go download Habitica right after I finished reading! I’m so sorry that January wasn’t that great. I think it was such a slumpy and gross month…I’m glad that you were able to practice self-care though ❤ You deserve it so much. I hope you'll be able to focus more on blogging and interactions with friends too. I'm excited for you!!

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