In reference to the post title, I’m trying to be positive here.
Yes, I read only one book and the fact that I didn’t read more makes me cry. But yes, I went to New York and it was my favorite thing ever. So who’s really losing here because it’s not me!!
Today, after quite some time of not posting, I’m talking about how my January went, except it’s more of a quiet ramble of things that may or may not be correct in my memory because January lasted way too long.
I finished only 1 book in January, and I am… so sad about it. I mean, I did read a few more books, but I never actually finished them. And I don’t think I’ve ever finished less than 4 books in my life before!!
But I’m going to be positive about it!!! Because the book I did manage to finish was AMAZING, and it also was an adult fantasy that I somehow almost read at the pace of a contemporary. So I’m very proud of myself for that!
- The Poppy War RF Kuang // this was so well-written but also just completely. messed with my mind. how dare it end like that!! ★★★★★ [4.5]
I did get a few ARCs this month, actually! I was lucky to receive Belle Révolte, which I’ll be posting a review of soon, and What I Like About You!! Thank you to Sourcebooks Fire adn Simon & Schuster, respectively, for these copies.
Yet again, I was pretty terrible at blogging. I don’t know how else to say these kinds of things without sounding like I’m making excuses for myself or without trying to make you feel bad for me. I really don’t need or want the pity or sympathy; I simply know that I’ve consistently been horrible at meeting my word of improving at actually blogging and talking.
I’m still not exactly sure why I’ve been struggling so much lately to write up blog posts or make myself comment/reply, or even just simply read one blog post that I’m interested in. It’s like my brain rejects the idea before anything else can happen. I can’t even, in good conscience, make a promise that I’ll get better, because I feel like I won’t!! But again, I’ll keep trying, and we’ll see what happens.
- I wrote one singular poem. How’s that for writing.
- (It wasn’t even a good one. Or a long one.)
- I went back to school, and I naturally had the worst time ever. Already there have been a few stressful things (I hate math class), but I guess it hasn’t been as bad as I expected.
- I also attended a MUN conference, and saying this really makes me realize how LONG January felt, because while it happened only at the beginning of the month, it feels like I actually went to the conference like 3 months ago.
- I also WENT TO NYC, which was 100% my favorite thing about this month!!! I miss it so much already, and not for the whole tourist life part of it: I genuinely can see myself living there one day, and it was so exciting to explore different parts of the city. AND!!! I got to meet one of my closest friends Ju for the first time at the Met and it was amazing.
- In NYC, I got to see two Broadway musicals, West Side Story and Moulin Rouge, and my favorite was absolutely Moulin Rouge. I’m listening to the soundtrack right now to imagine I’m still there watching it. I also was able to take some amazing master classes with great teachers, and it snowed while we were there, which was really pretty except for the slush!
- I’m still obsessed with Miraculous Ladybug, and I know you’re all annoyed with hearing me talk about it but it is an important part of my life!! It’s pretty much the only thing I (re)watch regularly now.
- Overall, my mental health was okay: it was better than December’s, but far from what I would have liked. I think not reading really destroyed my self-esteem this month, actually, because it’s usually so essential in my life and this month it wasn’t?
(I didn’t have an actual wrap-up for December, so I didn’t make any goals except for these small non-blogging ones)
- read 9 books ㄨ (this is… so humiliating…)
- write 5 poems ㄨ (I can justify the 1 book thing but this is just even more humiliating)
- get 50% done with driver’s ed ㄨ (ah yes. I did it for one day and never touched it again)
- read 9 books (so far I’ve already finished 1 and got 100+ pgs into another so HOPEFULLY we won’t be repeating January)
- post 5 times (I have my Planned Content ready but we’ll see if I actually get around to it!)
- write 5 poems
- start (re)plotting WIP? (very big emphasis on ?)
- answer some comments!! comment on blogs!!!
- do driver’s ed stuff (I really want to get my license by the summer so!! I need to actually get both my driving and classroom hours in!!!)
Three-day weekend! I have to look forward to the small things, and the small things include the moments of bliss of three-day weekends. It’s just one more day away from school, but it’s absolutely magical to me.
More reading? There’s really nothing major going on in February, so hopefully that means more time for me to read a lot of books! I have a bunch I want/need to read soon-ish, so hopefully I can get through them all. I’m also currently participating in the Pondathon, which is very helpful in getting me to read!
how was your January? did you have a good start to the year? did you read more than me? (probably) what are some of your goals for February?
P.S. for once in my life I wrote a short wrap-up… is it strange to say I’m a little terrified of its shortness