May’s Moments of the Month: June // Rough Mental Health and Favorite TV Shows

Was June even real? Be honest.

It felt like the month happened in a blur. But I guess that can be blamed on the fact that my mental health wasn’t so great! It also felt like I was doing so many things but also nothing at the same time? I’m doing things, like reading and writing and blogging, but it all feels so pointless.

Anyways, I’m going to take this opportunity to remind you to be keeping up with current events, sharing resources, and donating if you can! I’ve been including BLM resources in my posts but I also want to bring attention to Palestine: donate to these orgseducate yourselfshare resources.

Click for BLM resources.

mmm reading

I read 10 books in JuneI was not that great at following my TBR, and had a few impulsive reads that didn’t follow my theme of wanting to read Black authors / queer books. But that’s okay, because I’m planning on reading those throughout the year anyways and that’s what’s most important!

Unfortunately, I had a rough start to the month, though I ended up liking more books near the end. My average rating was 3 stars, not counting rereads, so I guess it could have been worse!

Favorite (not counting reread): 🌹, least favorite: 🥀, most disappointing: 💔.

Running With Lions  The Black Flamingo  How to Be Remy Cameron  Forest of Souls (Shamanborn, #1)  Avatar: The Last Airbender: The Promise (Avatar: The Last Airbender, #1)

  • 🥀 Running with Lions Julian Winters // I suspected I wouldn’t love this but… god the writing was so bad and I didn’t care about the characters ★★☆☆☆
  • The Black Flamingo Dean Atta // read this in one day and it was so beautifully written!! really great story about growing up Black and gay ★★★★☆
  • How to Be Remy Cameron Julian Winters // better than Running with Lions in terms of writing and messages but I still didn’t care about the characters! ★★☆☆☆
  • 💔 Forest of Souls Lori M Lee // this cover was pretty but oh look… another book where I didn’t care about the characters… ★★☆☆☆ [review]
  • Avatar: The Last Airbender: The Promise Gene Luen Yang // Katara and Aang’s “sweetie”s were the worst but Zuko’s arc was 👌👌👌👌👌👌 ★★★★☆

Graceling (Graceling Realm, #1)  The Beauty That Remains  Girl, Serpent, Thorn  You Deserve Each Other  Full Disclosure

  • Graceling Kristin Cashore // [reread] impulsive because I was sad and needed serotonin from rereading and I was genuinely so happy because of this book!! ★★★★★
  • The Beauty That Remains Ashley Woodfolk // I feel so mean but I just didn’t really care that much about the events/characters. also the multi POVs was weird ★★☆☆☆
  • Girl, Serpent, Thorn Melissa Bashardoust // this was solid but I wanted things to be darker (and I also wanted more gay!!) ★★★☆☆
  • 🌹 You Deserve Each Other Sarah Hogle // I did not read white cishet romance… look away… but this was cute and funny and made me smile! I did it for the serotonin okay!! ★★★★☆
  • Full Disclosure Camryn Garrett // I really loved this! made me emotional at some points, and GOD I want someone to love me like Miles loves Simone ★★★★☆

mmm blogging

updates

The 2020 Book Blogger Awards have begun and I am so excited! In June I wasn’t too good at keeping up with blog posts, and this month probably won’t be much better, because keeping up with the awards daily takes up a lot of time. But it makes my heart grow so much to see all the blogger love, truly!

Obviously I’m biased as a host, but!! nominate some bloggers!! You can learn all about it right here, and it’d be a great way to help boost and support bloggers (even if they don’t win an award). And if you need an incentive—though I hope you wouldn’t—there’s a giveaway you can enter!

(I also started going through my old 2017-2018 posts and privating them. I’m not deleting them entirely, but I refuse to have them viewable by the public. Thinking about that makes me want to climb in a hole and never get back out!!!)

top posts

qpoc book recs  BBA 2020 Logo  mid yr freak out

I’m try not to look at/talk about stats, but I GOT ALMOST 10K VIEWS IN ONE MONTH??? I’ve never come anywhere close to that so I’m genuinely shocked. But I love you all, and the support for my QPOC YA book recs post really made me so so happy!!

favorite posts from others

mmm writing

I somehow got to 43.5k words for planning. Which means I wrote 15.2k this month??? It sounds like I’m achieving a lot, but I’m telling you I have NO idea what my plot is. I just talk to myself and write down random ideas that go nowhere.

this is what I think every time I plot

I’m giving myself another week in July to plot, but then I’ll have to start drafting because of the writing contest deadline! Perhaps we will see a writing update post this month?? Perhaps???

As for poetry, I wrote a tiny bit more than usual (because I was sad) but it wasn’t anything special. I wanted to do something writing-related every day, though, so when I wasn’t feeling up to the mood to plot, I just forced myself to write a (bad) poem lmao.

mmm life

I watched She-Ra! Obviously I had to mention this first because it’s the most important event that happened in June (and also because… literally nothing else happened in June…). It was amazing, and though I was decently invested from the beginning, season 5 was truly a masterpiece!!! Lesbian friends to enemies to lovers excellence!!!

watch HD | She-Ra and the Princesses of Power Season 5 Episode 4 ...

Moving on to less important things: My mental health was… not great! Honestly the only thing saving me from feeling like complete trash was my habit tracker, strangely. I made one for June for the first time in years, and it was super motivational for doing basic self-care/hygiene! It also pushes me to read/write a bit every day.

But it truly wasn’t all that bad!! My obsession with ATLA returned full-force after finishing She-Ra, and it kept me very distracted. I resumed watching Criminal Minds, and I started another Thai drama though I put it on hold <small>(I was using it as a way to learn Thai but I finally started actually studying the alphabet again)</small>. I also listened to a bunch of Rina Sawayama and Mitski, which was a very healing experience!

mmm old goals

  • read 13 books (honestly I’m surprised I even read 10 books
  • continue working on WIP!!  (I CAN’T PLOT but it’s okay I still tried)
  • write 3 poems
  • do driver’s ed stuff (did it one day…?)
  • read/write/listen to Thai every day (most days)
  • work out (I did so well on all my habits except for this one)
  • SAT practice
  • research college stuff (on the very last day of June I started so I’m counting it)
  • donate

mmm new goals

  • read 10 books (I don’t have a TBR but this seems like a good amount for me)
  • write and edit 9k-14k
  • write 3 poems
  • start scheduling posts in advance (I have no post ideas but I want to do this because school is starting in August!)
  • don’t let BBA pile up!
  • do driver’s ed stuff
  • keep up with habits (my habit tracker is my savior)
  • work out
  • more college stuff (including research / SAT practice)

mmm looking ahead

Mourning that I’m not in Thailand. I was supposed to travel there for July, before covid, so I’m very sad about not being able to go. I really miss being there (as well as all my family of course), but it is what it is and I’ll just wait until next year!

Writing and reading! I’m entering a writing contest in August, so obviously I need to get some writing done! I’m also trying to read as many books as I can before I go back to school in August. I’m not sure how it’s going to work with covid yet, but no matter what, I’ll definitely have less time. And it’s supposed to be a very hectic, stressful year for me so!!

The Book Blogger Awards. This takes up a big chunk of my time, at least the nominations round. I’m so glad I have a co-host this year, and I’m especially appreciative of the fact that while I’m at home doing nothing during the summer, Marie is still working! I genuinely love hosting, though, and I can’t wait to see how the awards go this year.


shall we chat

how was June for you? what books did you read? have you watched She-Ra or ATLA? are you planning to participate in the BBA??

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61 thoughts on “May’s Moments of the Month: June // Rough Mental Health and Favorite TV Shows

  1. I’m so sorry June wasn’t the best for you, and I hope July is better!💖 But also you did amazing at reading a lot of books and putting out wonderful blog posts and writing and everything else, so just know I’m really proud of you :,)

    This is the second post of the day in which I’ve seen You Deserve Each Other be a favorite and now I really want to read it?! I’m really glad it made you smile and I hope I can get around to it really soon. Also, thank you again for hosting the Book Blogger Awards! I’m looking forward to writing my post as soon as possible.

    Sending you all the well wishes for July, May! xx

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    1. olivia!!! you’re too sweet to me, this isn’t allowed 🥺 but thank you, this post has really shown me that to everyone i’ve accomplished a lot and yet to me it looks like nothing 😭

      and yes!! i really enjoyed you deserve each other, and i feel like you might love it too, especially knowing how much you love contemporaries/romance <3 and aah i'm so excited to see your nominations post! i'm glad to see all this excitement for the awards 🥺 i hope you have an amazing july too!!

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  2. Aww May, I’m so sorry to hear about this. Take care of yourself and hopefully next month will be better for you. The past couple of days have been like that for me but I think I might be coming around because so far today seems so fingers crossed, lol.
    Ahhh I’m just so excitedly typing up my nominations post, thank you so much for organizing the awards! Also hehe yes I wanted more gay out of Girl, Serpent, Thorn but I still ended up loving it :)
    Good luck with your WIP! My semester is also starting end of August so I totally get what you mean, I’m legit scrambling to enjoy this free time before it’s gone…

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    1. aahh charvi, you’re too kind to me <3 i hope your month is better for you too, though!! we both deserve all the good health 💓

      and YAY i'm so excited to see your nominations!! thank you so much for participating, it makes me so happy <3 and ahh yeah! girl, serpent, thorn was definitely a very solid book, despite me wanting more from the romance 🥰 and thank you so much! i'm sure we will both accomplish so much with our wips before we have to go back to school!!

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  3. she-ra & atla are literally my only sources of serotonin rn……i love these characters sm :’) also YES,,, catradora in the last season?? friends to enemies to lovers excellence 😌❤️

    also i feel you about having a rough mental health month in June 🤧 i hope that July is better for you, sending all my love & support 💞 hope that you get to read a lot of wonderful books and watch more amazing shows hehe (i feel deprived now that i’ve finished she-ra :’))

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    1. omg seeing all the she-ra/atla content you rt on to my tl brings me so much joy 🥺 and YES no one is doing it like catradora…… truly no one

      and i’m sorry that june was a rough mental health month for you too!! i hope things are better in july for us both <3 and yes!! i recently just got disney+ (parents' bday gift for my sister technically but shh) so i have lots to dive into 😈

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  4. Feel for you with the low mental health 😔 and for not being in Thailand like your plans, gah, that sucks. But YAY for writing!! And I hope July is full of good words too. I was going to outline in June and write in July and I have done neither :)) Going to sit in a hole and just keep thinking about writing instead of doing it.

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    1. i’m sorry you didn’t have good mental health in june either, cg! i hope things are better for both of us this month 💓 and yes full of writing too!! i also had the plan to outline in june and write in july, but… well 😭 we got this though!!

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  5. I’m sorry your mental health wasn’t great this june, I hope that July will improve little by little <3 I'm with you on the habit tracker thing, it's like one of these little things that make me actually move and try to write and get a move on my writing projects. It makes me sad to leave days blank hahaha.
    I'm sorry you didn't love The Beauty That Remains, this makes me a little sad, but I'm glad you had other great reads during the month. So curious about the Black Flamingo!
    I'm always here for you and rooting for you, and you'll crush that writing contest! Sending you lots of love <3 <3

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  6. So psyhed to get to You Deserve Each Other and Full Disclosure eeek <3 all the stellar reviews give me FOMO hehe. Hope your mental health gets better soon xoxox

    But yay for good blogging stats!! And so excited for the awards, you're an amazing host!!!

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  7. June was so strange??? Definitely the most surreal month so far 😱
    Ohh, I love the Avatar Comics as well, they are such comfort reads and really make me want to rewatch the show 🥰 I’m also happy to see that you love Graceling, I’ve got that one waiting on my physical TBR for me!

    I also want to watch She-Ra soon, as I’ve heard so much praise for it 😊 Sorry to hear that your mental health wasn’t great, I hope things are better in June ❤

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    1. it really was! i don’t know if it was because it was like the first real month of summer for the northern hemisphere but it was strange haha. and yes i’m planning to read the atla comics and then rewatch the show right after!!

      yes, please do watch she-ra, it’s amazing 🥺 and thank you so much! i hope your mental health is better this month too <3

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