May’s Moments of the Month: June // It is Summer and I am Still Stressed

June was basically filled with existential dread for me.

No way this year has gone by so quickly already… no way practically half my summer is gone already… I appreciate the freedom and relaxation that summer brings (or Should bring) but wow I think I am just in a constant state of stress at this point because I did not feel that relaxed at all.

June was clearly a bit stressful for me despite it being summer. Life Stuff is just so pressuring, not to mention all the pressures I put on myself! I wasn’t even able to achieve that much escapism through reading since I didn’t enjoy a lot of what I read in June and I also didn’t write… I am struggling big time basically.

mmm reading

I read 8 books! I actually had a somewhat disappointing reading month? I’ve been enjoying a majority of what I read, but last month 5 out of 8 books were not as good as I was expecting them to be (though I guess you could say one of them I wasn’t really expecting that much from…). I am very upset that The Gays let me down like this.

Miss Meteor  The Chosen and the Beautiful  Hungry Daughters of Starving Mothers  Gearbreakers (Gearbreakers, #1)

  • Miss Meteor Tehlor Kay Mejia & Anna-Marie McLemore // super sweet relationships (platonic, familial, and romantic) and empowering messages! ★★★★☆ [3.5]
  • The Chosen and the Beautiful Nghi Vo // not a new fave like I expected, but I still enjoyed it! beautiful writing but it was just too much like The Great Gatsby so it bored me ★★★☆☆
  • Hungry Daughters of Starving Mothers Alyssa Wong // a great short story, so violent and emotional and haunting. love the open-ended ending and the general themes ★★★★☆
  • Gearbreakers Zoe Hana Mikuta // heyyy least favorite book of the year! the writing was just so atrocious and I spent the majority of this book being annoyed (and confused) ★★☆☆☆ [1.5]

Honey Girl  Pet  The Fifth Season (The Broken Earth, #1)  Rise to the Sun

  • Honey Girl Morgan Rogers // I’M SO SAD ABOUT THIS. it really wasn’t for me: the writing got a little try-hard and repetitive, and I didn’t really feel much until the end of the book ★★☆☆☆ [2.5]
  • Pet Akwaeke Emezi // so, so unique! sure packed a punch for such a short book, and I loved its message of the importance of remembering human monstrosity in order to learn from it ★★★★☆
  • The Fifth Season NK Jemisin // brilliant… the plot twist really had me so shocked! it’s not 5 stars because it was a bit “introdcutory” and also was slow in the beginning, but WOW… ★★★★☆
  • Rise to the Sun Leah Johnson // I’M ALSO SO SAD ABOUT THIS. I enjoyed the character development and the themes, but the insta love ruined so much for me ★★★☆☆ [2.5]

mmm blogging


This month was like the first time I’d actually posted a lot (“a lot”) since January… I’m very happy with myself! I’m still hanging on the edge of burnout and struggling without any content ideas, but to be honest I’ve been enjoying my blog and Goodreads much more lately after trying to distance myself from other parts of the online book community. So hopefully that means I will actually become Better at blogging again because I truly miss it a lot!


mmm may 21  tjt review  jul dec 21 releases
mid yr book freak out 21  rina sawayama book recs


mmm writing

I really have not been working on my WIP like I wanted to… I have random things figured out (ie. setting and possible character names) but not an actual plot? I don’t think I’ve worked on a proper novel for over a year so I’m really struggling, and whatever ideas I end up getting would work better in a short story format. I’ve always been terrible at plotting but I’m especially rusty after so long without working on a novel!

mmm life

  • It’s summer for me, which means so much time to do Nothing… I’ve been trying to be productive, especially because there are lots of things I should/need to get done before I get to school but it’s so hard!! I’m very glad I finally got the chance to hang out with friends, though!
  • I spent less time on social media, and it was so refreshing. Like I said, I’ve been enjoying my blog and Goodreads a lot more and they’re much less exhausting than other platforms!
  • I’ve been taking dance classes and choreographing my dance solo, and dance truly means so much to me. I took for hip hop for the first time in two years, and not only have I improved a lot but I really enjoyed it! And I am having fun choreographing my solo (it’s to Cherry by Rina Sawayama, piano version) despite how terribly difficult choreographing is.
  • I finished watching Bungou Stray Dogs, and even though I haven’t watched a lot of anime to compare with, I have to say it’s definitely one of my favorites!

mmm old goals

  • read 9 books
  • catch up on ARC reviews (didn’t write as many as I wanted to but still did some)
  • post 5 times
  • continue working on WIP
  • college prep/writing :(
  • IB work :(
  • get off my phone
  • driver’s ed
    mmm new goals
  • read 9 books
  • catch up on ARC reviews
  • post 5 times
  • work on WIP
  • college prep/writing :(
  • IB work :(
  • get off my phone
  • driver’s ed

mmm looking ahead

Summer writing program! I’m both excited and nervous to attend the program… I think I’m going to have a lot of fun, learn a lot of things, and get inspired, but I’m also slightly nervous that they’ll expect a lot from me because clearly I have been Struggling with writing lately. But I genuinely cannot wait and the fact that it’s virtual will quell a bit of my nerves at least!

I actually have somewhat of a TBR this month, which is very surprising since I usually only do TBRs for May and June, and I thought I’d share the books because why not: Iron Widow, Jade Fire Gold, Mirage, Gods of Jade and Shadow, and How to Pronounce Knife. I’m really hoping this month’s reading wasn’t like June’s because I truly think some of these could be new favorites!!

shall we chat

how was your month? were you struck with bad reading luck like me? are you participating in Camp NaNo?

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26 thoughts on “May’s Moments of the Month: June // It is Summer and I am Still Stressed

  1. Sorry to hear that you have been struggling in June, I hope things get better! ❤ I’m also feeling the stress as my exams are approaching and so many things are demanding my attention 😴 I also didn’t enjoy Honey Girl … The writing style didn’t agree with me at all and I kind of expected more after all the hype 😅
    Good luck with your summer writing program, I hope it goes well! 🥰

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  2. So June was super weird for me. My mental health was utter trash, but I did have a really good reading month? Then at the very end of the month I started an internship which will be taking over the rest of my summer, which I’m honestly excited about. I hope that your summer writing program ends up helping structure your summer some more, and that it brightens up your month!

    Thank you so much for mentioning my post! Blogging has been difficult these past few months, so knowing that people enjoyed my posts enough to share them means a lot. 💕

    I hope you have a fantastic July filled with only amazing reads!

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    1. i’m so sorry you had a bad mental health month, i hope you’re feeling better in july so far <3 but i'm glad to hear you read good books and starting an internship! and thank you so much 💓

      of course! i've also been struggling with blogging so i want to spread the love when i can <33

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  3. Ooh, I hope you have fun at your writing program! It’s been years since I did any scribbling for NaNoWriMo, so very impressed~ I got approved for ARCs for Iron Widow and Jade Fire Gold, interested to see what you think of them!

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  4. I hope you have a great July!! I also have an arc of iron widow which I’m slowly reading. in june, i read 30 books (some were ones I had to finish from May and a majority of them were contemporary). i have a summer program through a university in my city so i’m excited for that to start tomorrow b/c it has classes to help me w college prep – i have a narrowed list and am going to California in august to see some universities so i am excited for that!!

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  5. I’m so sorry to hear June was hard on you, I hope you have a much better July! Good luck with everything love!! It’s so sad you didn’t enjoy Rise to the sun btw, I was actually surprised the insta love didn’t bother me too much lol. But Gearbreakers and Honey girl…am scared for those now. I’ve heard some more things about Gearbreakers’ writing and I honestly don’t know what to expect anymore lol! Great post!!

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    1. thank you so much, birdie! <3 i'm glad the insta love didn't bother you too much in rise to the sun, it really was what brought down my opinion of the book the most 😭😭 ahh i hope you enjoy gearbreakers and honey girl! it seems like there are lots of people who love both of them so hopefully you'll be one of them lol!


  6. i’m sorry june wasn’t a very Great month for you!! i started listening to rina sawayama a few days ago because of your recs post, and i actually really like her music! ah i hope you enjoy iron widow and jade fire gold, i enjoyed both of those. hoping you have a better july <33

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  7. I’m sorry to Hera June was hard for you but hoping that July will be better! I’ve been meaning to watch Bungo Stray Dogs and so I’m happy to hear you enjoyed it!! Yay for dancing again and all the best with the choreography! All the best with the summer writing programme too!

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  8. I’m so sorry that you’ve been struggling this past month, love and I hope that July will be better, I’m sending you all the love <3
    I'm a little sad to see Miss Meteor and Honey Girl weren't favorites for you, hoping I will end up loving that second one anyway! <3
    The writing program sounds so exciting! I hope you'll have a lot of fun with it <3 Sending you love and take care, always <3

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  9. aww May i’m sorry that June wasn’t a good month for you both personally and reading-wise!! hoping that July has been better for you 💞 i’m glad you’ve gotten a chance to hang out with friends, i’ve also been spending a lot of time with my friends lately (many of which i hadn’t seen in over a year, since pre-covid) and i genuinely feel so happy to see people in-person again 🥺 oohhh i hope your summer writing program is going well! that sounds super fun and i hope you’re getting a lot of insights from it :))

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    1. july was definitely better to me! i hope you had a great month too 💓 and ahh i’m glad to hear that you also got to spend time with your friends! it really is so refreshing after a year without getting to see them. and thank you!! i had a great time at the writing program :))

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