June was basically filled with existential dread for me.
No way this year has gone by so quickly already… no way practically half my summer is gone already… I appreciate the freedom and relaxation that summer brings (or Should bring) but wow I think I am just in a constant state of stress at this point because I did not feel that relaxed at all.
June was clearly a bit stressful for me despite it being summer. Life Stuff is just so pressuring, not to mention all the pressures I put on myself! I wasn’t even able to achieve that much escapism through reading since I didn’t enjoy a lot of what I read in June and I also didn’t write… I am struggling big time basically.
I read 8 books! I actually had a somewhat disappointing reading month? I’ve been enjoying a majority of what I read, but last month 5 out of 8 books were not as good as I was expecting them to be (though I guess you could say one of them I wasn’t really expecting that much from…). I am very upset that The Gays let me down like this.
- Miss Meteor Tehlor Kay Mejia & Anna-Marie McLemore // super sweet relationships (platonic, familial, and romantic) and empowering messages! ★★★★☆ [3.5]
- The Chosen and the Beautiful Nghi Vo // not a new fave like I expected, but I still enjoyed it! beautiful writing but it was just too much like The Great Gatsby so it bored me ★★★☆☆
- Hungry Daughters of Starving Mothers Alyssa Wong // a great short story, so violent and emotional and haunting. love the open-ended ending and the general themes ★★★★☆
- Gearbreakers Zoe Hana Mikuta // heyyy least favorite book of the year! the writing was just so atrocious and I spent the majority of this book being annoyed (and confused) ★★☆☆☆ [1.5]
- Honey Girl Morgan Rogers // I’M SO SAD ABOUT THIS. it really wasn’t for me: the writing got a little try-hard and repetitive, and I didn’t really feel much until the end of the book ★★☆☆☆ [2.5]
- Pet Akwaeke Emezi // so, so unique! sure packed a punch for such a short book, and I loved its message of the importance of remembering human monstrosity in order to learn from it ★★★★☆
- The Fifth Season NK Jemisin // brilliant… the plot twist really had me so shocked! it’s not 5 stars because it was a bit “introdcutory” and also was slow in the beginning, but WOW… ★★★★☆
- Rise to the Sun Leah Johnson // I’M ALSO SO SAD ABOUT THIS. I enjoyed the character development and the themes, but the insta love ruined so much for me ★★★☆☆ [2.5]
This month was like the first time I’d actually posted a lot (“a lot”) since January… I’m very happy with myself! I’m still hanging on the edge of burnout and struggling without any content ideas, but to be honest I’ve been enjoying my blog and Goodreads much more lately after trying to distance myself from other parts of the online book community. So hopefully that means I will actually become Better at blogging again because I truly miss it a lot!
THIS MONTH’S POSTS
FAVORITE POSTS FROM OTHERS
- The Quiet Pond’s Pride Month feature was amazing as always, from recommendation posts to guest interviews! I particularly loved Skye’s interview with Zen Cho.
- Reads Rainbow did a fantastic feature on intersectional stories for Pride, and I loved all of them and especially enjoyed their Southeast Asian book recs!
- Cande @ Cande Reads recommends queer books by Mexican American authors to read!
- Malka @ Paper Procrastinators wrote such an interesting discussion on why she doesn’t “play favorites” when it comes to authors.
- Chai @ Books with Chaima recommends queer heist books, which is truly what we’re all looking for!
I really have not been working on my WIP like I wanted to… I have random things figured out (ie. setting and possible character names) but not an actual plot? I don’t think I’ve worked on a proper novel for over a year so I’m really struggling, and whatever ideas I end up getting would work better in a short story format. I’ve always been terrible at plotting but I’m especially rusty after so long without working on a novel!
- It’s summer for me, which means so much time to do Nothing… I’ve been trying to be productive, especially because there are lots of things I should/need to get done before I get to school but it’s so hard!! I’m very glad I finally got the chance to hang out with friends, though!
- I spent less time on social media, and it was so refreshing. Like I said, I’ve been enjoying my blog and Goodreads a lot more and they’re much less exhausting than other platforms!
- I’ve been taking dance classes and choreographing my dance solo, and dance truly means so much to me. I took for hip hop for the first time in two years, and not only have I improved a lot but I really enjoyed it! And I am having fun choreographing my solo (it’s to Cherry by Rina Sawayama, piano version) despite how terribly difficult choreographing is.
- I finished watching Bungou Stray Dogs, and even though I haven’t watched a lot of anime to compare with, I have to say it’s definitely one of my favorites!
- read 9 books ✗
- catch up on ARC reviews ✓✗ (didn’t write as many as I wanted to but still did some)
- post 5 times ✓
- continue working on WIP ✗
- college prep/writing :( ✓
- IB work :( ✓
- get off my phone ✗
- driver’s ed ✓
- read 9 books
- catch up on ARC reviews
- post 5 times
- work on WIP
- college prep/writing :(
- IB work :(
- get off my phone
- driver’s ed
Summer writing program! I’m both excited and nervous to attend the program… I think I’m going to have a lot of fun, learn a lot of things, and get inspired, but I’m also slightly nervous that they’ll expect a lot from me because clearly I have been Struggling with writing lately. But I genuinely cannot wait and the fact that it’s virtual will quell a bit of my nerves at least!
I actually have somewhat of a TBR this month, which is very surprising since I usually only do TBRs for May and June, and I thought I’d share the books because why not: Iron Widow, Jade Fire Gold, Mirage, Gods of Jade and Shadow, and How to Pronounce Knife. I’m really hoping this month’s reading wasn’t like June’s because I truly think some of these could be new favorites!!