I didn’t think I’d be making this kind of post any time soon.
I won’t make this post any longer than I have to, since I think it’s pretty clear from the title what I’ll be doing. But recently I’ve been suffering from a lot of burnout, as evidenced by my lack of posts and interaction with the community. I don’t have the same kind of motivation to blog or comment on blogs anymore, I have zero ideas as to what to post, and I have so little time these days to blog because of school. What time I do have is spent mindlessly entertaining myself through shows, videos, books—anything that’s not a task that requires actual thought, like blogging.
So I’ve decided to take a hiatus from blogging, for an indefinite amount of time.
This was a very difficult decision for me to make, and I kept doubting whether this was actually something I wanted or would benefit from (I am an extremely indecisive person in every area of my life). Earlier in the year, I said I had plans for a blog revamp, and I was full of excitement at the prospect of a new year for new ideas and content. But these last few months have been hard for me in blogging, but also in life/school-related things, too.
In all my latest monthly recap posts, I keep repeating that I don’t know what to post, I’m low on motivation, I need to take break, etc. And as I looked over what’s coming up for me this year and next, I came to the conclusion that I’d rather take a clean, complete break from blogging, instead of this on-and-off content creation. I keep promising to be more consistent and then failing to deliver, and it just makes me feel so terrible!! And even if I manage to get back my motivation and inspiration to blog, I won’t have enough time. I owe it to both myself and you all to do things with my full commitment, and what I’m doing right now isn’t that.
(And honestly, I don’t know how bloggers who’ve been around for longer than I have are still keeping this up. Beyond my own personal burnout and lack of blog post ideas, I think being a book blogger—and especially a young blogger of color, in my case—can be very discouraging at times, not just in terms of support from the wider community but also a feeling of not being heard or listened to. I always wondered how other bloggers became so burnt out that they stopped blogging, but I think I understand them a little more now.)
I started blogging at a young age and it was as much a formative experience for me as any other regular teenage experience. It sounds very cheesy, but I couldn’t imagine my life without blogging being at least a small part of it. My blog means a lot to me, and you all mean a lot to me too. I still have a lot of hope for my future with blogging. I just need some time to find my footing again.
If you’d like to keep in touch with me (please do!), my email is always open, and I’m still going to be active on Goodreads and social media if you want to see what I’m currently reading or up to in general. I probably also will still follow along on my favorite blogs—just because I won’t post doesn’t mean I’m entirely gone!
I love you all very much, and I cannot thank you enough for sticking with me all these years. I’m wishing you all the best of luck and happiness and health, and… happy April Fool’s!!!! :))
A parting gift from me to you (click)
sorry, not a gift, but this post will be deleted soon! :p see you in a few days with a new post <3 (also my pride is riding entirely on whether or not someone believed this so if you do not want me to actually disappeared, at least one of you better have been fooled)