May’s Moments of the Month: May // Big Reading Slump, No School, Bad Mental Health… but Pride and Vacation?

So! The month of me (May) was uhhhh not that great.

I mean, what could I expect? After April being my best month, I couldn’t expect May to be just as great, could I. I mean. That would be ridiculous. I would never expect something silly like that.

Okay so thankfully it wasn’t COMPLETELY bad: I got full scores on all my exams, ended the school year with hardly any homework and some fun with friends, and read some good books, despite being in a slump?

This is just me grabbing at positive things let’s be real.

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May’s Moments of the Month: April // Failing at Things, but Better Mental Health and Better Books!!

April felt like a MUCH better month for me.

I think it’s the best I’ve felt since January, and I’M SO PROUD. I didn’t actually do a lot of the self-care I wanted and hoped to do, but I still managed to have good mental health and not get so stressed/depressed like I was in the months before.

On top of that, I also read a lot of good books! I also stopped caring about low grade averages (even though they’re not that low) since it’s the end of the semester, and what’s done is done and there’s no point in regretting past mistakes unless I aim to fix it. (And I will. Next school year.)

Basically: April was my best month of the year and I’m SO SO HAPPY.

May’s Moments of the Month: February // Deteriorating Mental Health, Failing at Everything… But Reading Motivation??

The title of this post makes it sound like I had a REALLY bad February, but it was honestly just a bad February.

I really did not have a good month mental-health-wise, or writing-wise, or productivity-in-general-wise. But I blame it all on the bad health which can all be blamed on my mind and my stupid brain.

But some good things DID happen besides that?? I mean the bad mental health part kinda overshadows everything else, but there were still some good things. Like reading motivation. And Black Panther. And the Olympics.

I don’t know, I just hope March is a WHOLE lot better.

May’s Moments of the Month: January // The New Year is New but Not Better, I Feel Dead, and I Struggle (a Lot)

January… was all over the place.

Like my whole life tbh???

2018 started out VERY STRONGLY. (Probably because for the first week, I had no school???) But then it quickly turned into a bad month as soon as I went back to school, and from then it’s just been up and down.

I’ve been having really weird moods lately, usually all of them relating to the “I feel dead about everything” mood. I’m at the point where I don’t get a lot of sleep, I procrastinate my homework, procrastinate everything, DO nothing, and feel kinda like “uhhh everything is pointless?”

The only thing I have strong (HAPPY!!) emotions about is talking to my friends, who are very nice usually and serve as a good distraction.

But !! I guess January did have SOME highlights? (Or this is me trying to be unrealistically optimistic.)

May’s Moments of the Month: December // It’s Now 2018 & I’m Not Okay + an Actually Somewhat Successful December??

Today marks the FIRST DAY OF 2018.

I’m ??? fine ????? I mean I’m not saying I’m freaking out, but I’m freaking out????

It literally feels like it was just YESTERDAY that it was 2017.

(Yes, I did just make that joke. Yes, I will leave now.)

To be honest, 2017 was a pretty good year!! Of course, it had its ups and downs like all years do, but I was introduced to so many things & people and I’ll always appreciate that.

December was a pretty GREAT month, despite the stress to read 100 books (which I managed)!!! School was off, I took a nice long break from writing, and I’m slowly climbing my way out of my reading slump.